O to grace how great a debtor

Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law. Romans 13:8

...Jesus sought me when a stranger,
Wandering from the fold of God;
He, to rescue me from danger,
Interposed His precious blood.

O to grace how great a debtor
Daily I'm constrained to be!
Let that grace now like a fetter,
Bind my wandering heart to Thee...

So, at five am Thursday morning I might have cried because I was so tired, and I overslept, and I wasn't going to get my Spanish essay done... we may have complained a lot on Thursday night at my bible study...  Friday, I might have gotten really mad at my mom, just because I'm lazy and didn't want to clean my room, and I wanted some minutemade, no matter what she said... Saturday, during free time, I may have had my own personal, "I'm so tired" pity party... and all of this probably happened, not because the rest of the world just doesn't understand how hard my life if, but because it's really, really tempting to think I can do everything by myself, or to "get so busy" that I justify sleeping through my quiet time...

But, miraculously, the moment I think, God, I just can't do this anymore, things feel better. Sometimes, they even get better.

And I'm really, really happy for the people God has put into my life for those moments... Like my mom, who reminded me that other people have feelings too, or Morgan and Kathryn, who (probably without even realizing it) reminded me that in God, there is rest, or my leader team, whose love for kids with disabilities makes me smile, even when I kind of want to run away from those same kids, or Breanna, who often gets on my nerves, but then her mom comes out side with the bouquet of flowers that she wanted to make for me, and I am reminded what love is.

I don't have enough love in my heart... yet. But every time I realize this, I allow Christ to move in a little more.

By the cross we are freed from all debts except for one.  We still owe a continuing debt to love one another.