Life has been hard lately. As much as I hate that outside circumstances dictate how I live my life, they do. And the semester is winding to an end, and I have been running so hard for so long, and I am exhausted. And to top it all off, God has been showing me lately areas of my life that don't reflect his glory. And then Satan has been talking that truth, and twisting it into some inrecognizable thing that leaves me throwing up on the side of Mt Zion (the road... not the place) because I am crying so hard.
Today I got written up at my work for answering the phone while I had customers... Excellent end to an awesome morning.
I just don't really feel up for much of anything, least of all loving students, or being intentional, or doing homework. I just want to hide in a cave. Like literaly. Like Judges 6.
But here comes the angel of the Lord, and he's saying crazy stuff like "The Lord is with you" and calling me a mighty warrior. Cause, clearly, when the Lord looks down and sees someone hiding in caves and threshing wheat just to hide it from the enemy (and throwing up on the side of the road), he sees a mighty warrior.
And me and Gideon and just like, "Pardon me, my Lord, but... I'm just not good enough."
And he's like, "But I'm sending you to save lost Israel"
And we're like, "Pardon me, my Lord, but how?"
And he's like, "I will be with you"
Matthew 28:20
Acts 18:10
John 14:18
